Monday afternoon/evening I started getting some new symptoms including widespread muscle aches, bone pain in my legs and hips, jaw pain, stomach upset, and chills/temperature. Having new symptoms on top of a chronic illness not only makes you feel even more poorly, but can also be very frightening. I’m sure lots of other chronic illness sufferers can relate to the fear that you get everytime something a bit different happens in your body; something you don’t recognise. I remember when I first started getting POTS symptoms in January this year, I was absolutely terrified as I’d never experienced anything like it before and it wasn’t the chronic leg pain I was used to. I was terrified for months and months as it took such a long time to get a diagnosis. So many scenarios go through your mind as to what could be the cause and its really hard not to focus on it.
I must admit that the first thing I do when this happens is search the internet which I know isn’t the right thing to do but I still do it sometimes. On Monday evening I had a quick scan to try and find answers. Do I have yet another illness? Is it a virus or an infection? Are the symptoms attributed to POTS? Could I have Lyme Disease and this is a Lyme flare as it was suspected a little while ago? etc. But I never feel satisfied after surfing the web for answers and I still felt scared! I’m sure if I was well and hadn’t been through what I have with my health, I would just have assumed I had a virus and it would go away in a few days. But because I’ve got not one, but two chronic illnesses I always assume that anything new is going to be chronic too.
I have felt much calmer in the last few days and have more of a clear head even though I am still feeling much the same, as I have had time to reflect and I am pretty confident it’s just a virus or infection. I say ‘just and infection or virus’ but I mean its better than having something more serious and long lasting. Having a virus or infection knocks us spoonies (chronic illness sufferers – find out why we are called spoonies in my previous post) for six as our immune systems are already low and we’re already very weak so it takes us so much longer to recover from them. Fingers crossed this won’t last much longer as it’s making things even harder. I know lots of spoonies are suffering too, its that time of year, and i want to send you all lots of love and healing vibes!
I’ve been though a lot with my health but I’ve always managed to get through the really tough times and I will never give up even if I have to face further health challenges in the future.
How are you feeling at the moment? x